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Will I ever be enough?

BY ASHLEY DE LEON


Will I ever be enough?

Would you find me beautiful if I looked more like you?

Or do you hate that I remind you of the man who left you alone & blue?


Will I ever be enough?

Would you be pleased with me if my body was more curvy?

Do you have time to answer my questions?

It seems you are always in a hurry


Will I ever be enough?

Looking in your eyes scares me

I´m afraid you do not like what you see

Would it make you happy if my face had more symmetry?


Will I ever be enough?

It seems you like to compare me

Am I too flawed to be accepted?

I´m afraid I cannot measure up to what you expected


Will I ever be enough?

My interests are not the same as yours

Do I excite you? Do I move you? Or are you just bored?


Will I ever be enough?

My clothes is not what you would have selected or chosen

Am I too boyish? Or is my femininity just broken?


Will I ever be enough?

I know daddy's gone but I also need mommy

Why did you leave too? Have you forgotten all about me?


Will I ever be enough?

I come home to a face that´s robotic

Can´t you see I'm falling apart? My world is completely chaotic.


Will I ever be enough?

When you touch me it feels cold and empty..

Looking for love outside of home has become increasingly tempting.. 


Will I ever be enough?

I am searching everywhere and I cannot seem to find you

Do you have a minute to see me and check in?

The pain is getting deeper with every second.



Will I ever be enough?

It seems I have lost myself on my quest for you

My heart is so confused, tell me what is the truth..


Will I ever be enough?

I wish I felt safe in your presence

Nothing helps me anymore, not even these antidepressants


Will I ever be enough?

If you could look at me just for a moment..

What would you feel?  Would you have any sense of enjoyment?


Will I ever be enough?

It seems like everything I do is an attempt  to answer this question

I keep waiting, and waiting, hoping for the day you give me a confession


Will I ever be enough?

I have become weary from asking

Many have answered, and yet I'm left searching


Will I ever be enough?

I´m afraid your silence has given me an answer

I need some space, please leave me, I need time to deal with this anger


Will I ever be enough?

The answer is no, not for you at least

Though it pains me, the time has come for me to release 


Will I ever be enough?

Nothing wrong with the question

I simply was not asking the right person


The journey back to me has been so rough.

Ashley my beloved, you are enough.


The quest for you became tremendously long..

But I’m here to answer your question with a song.


Will you ever be enough?

It depends on who you’re asking.

All this time the true you has been slowly unmasking.


Look in the mirror, restore your vision

Will you ever be enough?

Finally Ashley, you get to make the decision.

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