BY ASHLEY DE LEÓN
Grief
A 5 letter word that contains all my offenses
A 5 letter word that demands all my senses
Grief
Can you feel it in your gut?
the way you GRIT your teeth and wish you were UNDERNEATH
Somewhere in a world where the pain would CEASE
Grief
My enemy, my friend
The place I’m afraid to go, I see NO END
Grief
Are you for me or against me?
This feeling, this pain, it’s unending
Grief
I find you in the strangest of places
Scattered in human faces
I feel you in my bones
Tucked away but sitting on a throne
I hear you on the phone
When I speak to the ones that raised me (pause)
Grief
What do you want from me?
I think you forgot to mention the goodness of your intention
They say I should feel you
Say hello and sit with you
Call you friend and embrace you
I’m afraid if I let you close, you will never let me go
Trapped in the prison of your existence
Broken, stuck in shackles of resistance
But what if im wrong?
The truth is I’ve judged you all along, closed my heart to you, grabbed the keys from you and threw them into the pit of HELL
But you know me all to WELL…
Oh I’m stuck, fucked, feeling struck
I hear you at the door.. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
You ask me questions I don’t want to answer
You take me places I don’t want to go
You make me feel things I’m afraid of
(Change tone to curious)
“Ashley, do you want the pain to stop?”
Then we must come to a stop.
Sit here a minute, let’s talk.
So for today; I welcome you.
I share my history.
I sit in your mystery
I open the door, and hand you the keys to my destiny.
For Today, I embrace you
Afraid, trembling & uncertain
Come me be with me, and open the curtain
There is no way but through.
Hold my hand in the fire, be gentle with my desires. I give my trust to you.
Grief
A 5 letter word that describes a lifelong journey
A 5 letter word, which you CANNOT hurry..
